I am in love with a young woman whom I am not a suitable match for, one reason for which is that I am 30 and she is 16. It's strictly a fantasy; I neither pursue nor make my feelings known to her and will never do so. I simply admire her from afar without interfering in her life. However, in private, am in love with her and practically worship her like a celebrity and collect pictures of her (I refrain from masturbating to her because doing so makes me feel guilty). Due to deficiencies in my life that I consider unfixable, I have given up on dating for the foreseeable future, if not indefinitely, so I can't get a woman my own age (because of my love for the girl in question, I feel as though I don't want another anyway). Do you think my behavior is creepy, immoral or self-destructive?