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I just want to know if there's anything inherently wrong with a 30 year old man closely following the online life of a16 year old girl....I'm sure she'd be beyond creeped out if she knew.

The circumstances of my life are largely beyond by control and I've basically given up on achieving self-esteem or happiness. I'm just surviving now.

I don't expect a relationship (sexual or otherwise), nor plan to engage her.

I fail to see why my post should be of interest to the moderators. I didn't admit to or advocate doing anything criminal.

I am in love with a young woman whom I am not a suitable match for, one reason for which is that I am 30 and she is 16. It's strictly a fantasy; I neither pursue nor make my feelings known to her and will never do so. I simply admire her from afar without interfering in her life. However, in private, am in love with her and practically worship her like a celebrity and collect pictures of her (I refrain from masturbating to her because doing so makes me feel guilty). Due to deficiencies in my life that I consider unfixable, I have given up on dating for the foreseeable future, if not indefinitely, so I can't get a woman my own age (because of my love for the girl in question, I feel as though I don't want another anyway). Do you think my behavior is creepy, immoral or self-destructive?