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  1. Can't be any worse than arguing on the internet + I'd be getting paid for it.
  2. I've realized that what I really want to do in life is promote the ideas I'm passionate about. The trouble is figuring out in what capacity I could do that. I don't think I'm cut out to be an intellectual, especially not a college professor. I'm a fair communicator and can write clearly on subject that I know about, but my writing lacks "sparkle" and I'm not a quick thinker or super articulate speaker when it comes to explaining things and dissecting opposing arguments off the top of my head like Yaron Brook does when he gives talks and participates in debates. I wish I could do so, but don't think I can. I would love to work for ARI in some capacity one day, maybe in a supportive role rather than as an intellectual. Any leads as to how I could accomplish this?
  3. I can't seem to find a definitive definition of fascism and can barely stand to look for one anymore, because all the descriptions of it I've read are obviously written by leftists who want to associate it with corporations and capitalism. Is there a set of essential characteristics that Objectivists ascribe to fascism, or can I conclude that 'fascist' is simply something that certain political 20th century political parties called themselves and that liberals call Republicans now?
  4. I'm fascinated with bioengineering due to the amazing and all-important things it can potentially accomplish. The problem is that everything I know about myself suggests that I have no chance to succeed in the field. At 31, I have nothing in my history that points toward any talent for science or engineering. During my one year of college, I did not excel at math and science coursework. I took an aptitude test a year ago to provide career guidance and scored low in the faculties supposedly required for technical work. Do you think I should ignore my pattern and self-knowledge and take math and science courses at a community college to test the waters despite the fact that it would almost certainly be a complete waste of precious time and resources?
  5. Since I've been at a total loss for what career to pursue, I decided to take the Johnson O'Connor Research Foundation aptitude test (www.jocrf.org), which has a reputation for accurately revealing one's natural cognitive strengths and weaknesses and providing invaluable insight for educational and career decisions. The test took six hours over two days and cost almost $700. Here are my results: So the only area in which I excel is what they call "ideaphoria," or the ability to generate a rapid flow of ideas, which is supposedly valuable in careers such as writing, teaching, and sales. The ideaphoria test doesn't measure the originality, creativity, or value of one' ideas, just how fast he can come up with them. I scored substantially above the 99th percentile for this aptitude - wow. I scored abysmally bad on the tests of clerical speed and accuracy (not surprising) and inductive reasoning, below average in arithmetic and spatial ability, average in vocabulary knowledge and memory, and somewhat above average, but not high in analytical reasoning ability. My score of "subjective" on the word association test is typical of people who prefer to specialize and work independently as opposed to through others and need to have a deep personal connection to their work. This is a remarkably accurate description of my attitude toward career. I can't understand how most people (those who don't score subjective) can stand not to have a personal connection to their work. These results pretty much explain why, at age 30, my only job is delivering newspapers, and I can't even do that right because with my lethal combination of high ideaphoria and low reasoning ability, my inner mental life is a never-ending torrent of stupid ideas and adolescent fantasies that impairs my ability to concentrate and causes me to fuck up almost everything I touch. For a person with the high ideaphoria and subjective personality aptitude pattern, the foundation suggests a career path as a creative specialist in an area that stems from a personal passion or interest, such as writing about issues that interest me, teaching a subject that I'm passionate about to motivated students (as opposed to typical middle or high school students who spend all day sexting and just want class to be over) or selling something that I'm personallly invested in. Indeed, those recommendations cover just about everything that I've ever wanted to do. The problem is that such careers seem extremely impractical, almost unattainable, and that, even though I may have a strong flow of ideas, they aren't necessarily good ones, and I'm not necessarily that good at conveying them. I'm not Steve Jobs or Ayn Rand. Looking at my other scores, it doesn't seem like I have the ability to do anything practical. I'd never make an engineer, accountant, or doctor. I couldn't look an employer in the eye and tell him I'd be a good administrative assistant. Teaching has always interested me, but I don't know what I'd teach or whom I'd teach it to, and judging from my other scores I may well be too dumb to pick up anything worth teaching. With my low inductive reasoning ability, you probably wouldn't want me troubleshooting your computer or fixing your car, and I wouldn't want to take the job anyway. Due to poor finger dexterity, I'm obviously not fit to handle shap objects, such as tools. It just seems like my aptitude pattern doesn't lend itself to anything realistic. So the results are grim. How much weight do you think I should give this stuff?
  6. I'm failry attached to the town I grew up in and don't want to leave even though there is not much opportunity here and my odds of economic success would be better in places that I would less rather be. It is irrational to stay anyway?
  7. For ~5 years I have been incapable of making major decisions. I struggle even with small decisions, but the big ones bring me to my knees. It seems like it should be just a matter of volition, deciding something, but for whatever reason my brain does not seem to allow me to do so and it feels beyond my control. Every time I try to make a decision, my mind quickly overrides whatever decision I make, and I'm back to my hopeless state of paralysis. For years, I have been totally stuck and made no progress in life thanks to being paralyzed with indecision. I am 30 years old and work a menial job that is less responsible than the one I did as a teenager because taking it was as big of a decision as I can stand to make anymore. Literally every waking moment of my life I spend obsessing over the pros and cons of different options in my head, to a degree that borders on obsession, but I am never able to decide anything. A year ago I missed a vital opportunity because I could not decide to do it. I want to commit suicide, but I can't decide that, either. My life is going up in smoke because I just can't decide anything :'(
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