Giemel Regis

Objectivist from Philippines. I grew up in a secularly religious family, where a lot of these christian beliefs have made me grown to detest religion, mostly coming from realization of their fallacies, imperviousness, psychological damage it has caused upon my family, because of it I slowly paved my way to an individualist morality and rational kind of thinking. On that journey i find myself to have been often mislead with philosophies of different kinds, that is until I reached Ayn Rand's lectures on the internet. I started reading about her and absorbed the fundamentals of her philosophy almost immediately, I know this is a bothering statement as many people who have lay claimed to be a speaker or a disciple of Objectivism in a short amount of time has always (in my observation) misrepresented Rand's ideas. This is not what I resemble though, only the fundamental idea that existence exists and the basic premises that follows after it is what i have fully comprehended. I also have been making my own conclusions and ideas to find that Rand agreed with it or so has something to say about it. I realized then that I do not know as much about Objectivism as I should (i have not finished Rand's fictions and I'm currently in the process of doing so), every page of the book to me is very profound as the character demonstrations always one way or another either tells me something new or strengthens my view about it. These are the reasons why I have been doubting to call myself an Objectivist, to rephrase it shorter I'd list it 1) Finding many discoveries in her book when I thought I was certain of which I already know. 2) The (existence of/also of the) irrational `fear` of knowing more than what I think I know. Even though In reality i should be able to figure it out if I try to observe and deconstruct it, the question only is that am I capable to do that in complex topics? Or so, have I learnt the fundamentals of the complex topics, to fulfill the heirarchal needs to understand those depths? I would still call myself an Objectivist though, as so far it is the Objectivist virtues that I try to practice (which have been such a challenge) and it is the philosophy which I try to learn the most of although not disregarding others. I digress, all these above is only to announce my unshaking doubt but to proceed with the introductions I shall make it shorter: I'm an avid journeyman of philosophy, art, entertainment (music and gaming), technology and science. The field of work that I pursue is the combination of these that I listed (except the gaming). I have a very long way ahead of me and so many challenges have been brought to my attention and I don't know if I'm dealing with it correctly. Living in this country feels to me like a dystopia. The majority of people are backwards in the sense that they uphold total opposite view of mine, of true freedom, of pursuance for individual excellence, of making life and interaction to other people to be seen through man's virtue as opposed to God, of political system based on ethics, and of ethics itself. I did my best to rebel to all of these and put myself in the process of making myself a plan to leave this atrocious place but a dilemma has faced me once again, what has happened to America, and which other places can I go too? You can witness the story unfold of my unprepared self, by reading through the posts that I may make here in the years to follow. To close, what am I actually doing: I have rebelled to achieve the things in which the norm has achieved spitefully, (that is following proper education curriculum which have largely been a waste of time, hence I didn't get 'impressive' school record, jobs that requires committing myself to healthcare and social security) and I made myself to make the merits of the skills that I acquired through self practice and learning be my only tool to achieve my goals. Or I say, i must not gain a certificate until I have rightfully acquired the skill that the certificate entails. And most of all make myself (the time i invested) the wanted rather than the time I sacrificed (for nothing substantial). Please tell me if I am being too unrealistic and ideological as i too question myself this way but I push it all aside because i know that i can reach what I aspire. That's all, I'm exhausted and has dragged this introduction long enough. You will notice that I made a substantial effort to write this introduction of myself, with an intention to document the CURRENT me and to see where I may go from this point, then second for the readers' to find it enjoyable despite my writing to be lacking any kind of trajectory or structure. Thank you for letting me in here and I would love to read around and offer and accept ideas about this philosophy.