Giemel Regis

This was an interesting read. I was surprised to see people have trouble with one or the other. For me i do abstract, auditory, internal monologue and visual. All of them i believe to be in the same level. However, i do not convert images to visual if I processed it from internal monologue or if I'm not reading something that involves a mental image. I separated internal monologue from auditory because I find that its really different when I think in melodies and harmony from me speaking to myself. When painting or sculpting: I have to make visual cues to eyeball the correct proportions and angles. ex. draw a line in my head where, what, goes from point a to point b, or impose a triangle image. When writing a story: I think in images, then translate them to prose. When playing chess: I find that i combined two kinds of visual thinking, for calculations I think of the exchanges within my head. And hold the image of the final board position then check to see if I'm making any blunder, rinse and repeat. But sometimes when I find that there is some sort of tactic that involves sacrifice, I concentrate on the board and make lines. What's interesting about this is that sometimes it allows me to know if a move is a mistake and doesn't need to be calculated. When programming: I don't really know how to describe this but when I think in programming I neither think in audio nor visual. The algorithms just pops in to my head like an abstraction. This also happens for anything if I'm trying to think really quickly. I play some esports fcg and sometimes i calculate the distance of my opponent like this (to see if they'll whiff etc). I realize that this is how I used to think back when i was a child and just developed internal monologue and visual images later on. That said, something that i was surprised knowing that people can't do but i find that is natural to me are the following: - Playing a song in my head completely. (from start to finish and 100% clear, which is an advantage since I can memorize a piece from 1-5x listening then transcribe them to paper) - Thinking of the sonority of notes and being able to hum in my head what I see from sheet music. - "Simulate" complex movements of things visually (which I always do because of a certain hobby)

Objectivist from Philippines. I grew up in a secularly religious family, where a lot of these christian beliefs have made me grown to detest religion, mostly coming from realization of their fallacies, imperviousness, psychological damage it has caused upon my family, because of it I slowly paved my way to an individualist morality and rational kind of thinking. On that journey i find myself to have been often mislead with philosophies of different kinds, that is until I reached Ayn Rand's lectures on the internet. I started reading about her and absorbed the fundamentals of her philosophy almost immediately, I know this is a bothering statement as many people who have lay claimed to be a speaker or a disciple of Objectivism in a short amount of time has always (in my observation) misrepresented Rand's ideas. This is not what I resemble though, only the fundamental idea that existence exists and the basic premises that follows after it is what i have fully comprehended. I also have been making my own conclusions and ideas to find that Rand agreed with it or so has something to say about it. I realized then that I do not know as much about Objectivism as I should (i have not finished Rand's fictions and I'm currently in the process of doing so), every page of the book to me is very profound as the character demonstrations always one way or another either tells me something new or strengthens my view about it. These are the reasons why I have been doubting to call myself an Objectivist, to rephrase it shorter I'd list it 1) Finding many discoveries in her book when I thought I was certain of which I already know. 2) The (existence of/also of the) irrational `fear` of knowing more than what I think I know. Even though In reality i should be able to figure it out if I try to observe and deconstruct it, the question only is that am I capable to do that in complex topics? Or so, have I learnt the fundamentals of the complex topics, to fulfill the heirarchal needs to understand those depths? I would still call myself an Objectivist though, as so far it is the Objectivist virtues that I try to practice (which have been such a challenge) and it is the philosophy which I try to learn the most of although not disregarding others. I digress, all these above is only to announce my unshaking doubt but to proceed with the introductions I shall make it shorter: I'm an avid journeyman of philosophy, art, entertainment (music and gaming), technology and science. The field of work that I pursue is the combination of these that I listed (except the gaming). I have a very long way ahead of me and so many challenges have been brought to my attention and I don't know if I'm dealing with it correctly. Living in this country feels to me like a dystopia. The majority of people are backwards in the sense that they uphold total opposite view of mine, of true freedom, of pursuance for individual excellence, of making life and interaction to other people to be seen through man's virtue as opposed to God, of political system based on ethics, and of ethics itself. I did my best to rebel to all of these and put myself in the process of making myself a plan to leave this atrocious place but a dilemma has faced me once again, what has happened to America, and which other places can I go too? You can witness the story unfold of my unprepared self, by reading through the posts that I may make here in the years to follow. To close, what am I actually doing: I have rebelled to achieve the things in which the norm has achieved spitefully, (that is following proper education curriculum which have largely been a waste of time, hence I didn't get 'impressive' school record, jobs that requires committing myself to healthcare and social security) and I made myself to make the merits of the skills that I acquired through self practice and learning be my only tool to achieve my goals. Or I say, i must not gain a certificate until I have rightfully acquired the skill that the certificate entails. And most of all make myself (the time i invested) the wanted rather than the time I sacrificed (for nothing substantial). Please tell me if I am being too unrealistic and ideological as i too question myself this way but I push it all aside because i know that i can reach what I aspire. That's all, I'm exhausted and has dragged this introduction long enough. You will notice that I made a substantial effort to write this introduction of myself, with an intention to document the CURRENT me and to see where I may go from this point, then second for the readers' to find it enjoyable despite my writing to be lacking any kind of trajectory or structure. Thank you for letting me in here and I would love to read around and offer and accept ideas about this philosophy.