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Well, I hate my major now. I think that is because of the depression maybe. I now have interest some other subjects. But I think if that subjects become my major, I will hate them too. And my major, that was only thing I can do better. The other subjects attracts my interest, but I guess they're not for me. I don't know, maybe I should change. But its too risky. And its forbidden too. That gives me a reason not to think about that for now.

Talking to my teachers will be some good. You're right. But past semesters, I wasn't able to do this, I was so anxious that I am gonna kicked out, I was blocked

I'm sorry. I didn't understand your response :/

This information will be very helpful for me. I am currently talking with a counceling agency. I will ask them about CBT therapy and "downward arrow" technique. Thank you very much!

You're right, I must go for a vacation. Calling the place responsible for the loans is a very good idea. I will definitely try it. But I think I have more chances to convince them to give me a vacation when I go to my country. I will mention about the depression. Thank you so much!

Actually, the university says the semester off is possible. But the government who pays me says its not possible according to my agreement of shcolarship. About the anti-depressants, I have been taking them 4 or 5 weeks. No, I have just seen the psychiatrist who prescribes me the medication. Allright then, I am gonna find a psychologist. Or should I go find a psychotherapist?

Hi. I am 21, and deeply depressed. It all started when I begin studying abroad. Actually, before that, when I entered university. I studied hard to enter the university, it became my purpose of life. But when that hard-working times finished, I was confused. I was alone in the face of life. I lived for my family, to make them happy, I entered a good university. But when I entered the university, I was confused. Maybe I couldn't take to live for myself, I had to think about. But the real problem is today. I've been studying abroad for 3 years. These three years was the hardest times of my life. I am still confused, and that has changed me. And gave me a depression. And caused a total failure in my university life. Now I cannot take to study, its looks meaningless. I don't want to sacrifice myself for others anymore. I am thinking about quiting the university, or rest some time. But if I quit, my family should have to pay much money, because government was paying my charges. If I quit, the government will want that money back. There is a possibility that, they won't. Anyway, its the scariest thing I heard. I can't do that to my family. And the other option - a vacation, the government says its not possible. What should I do? If I just keep trying to study, I am afraid I will fail and all of my life will be undone. What I know is I have to do something about that. I am going to a psychologist which gives me anti-depressants, some kind of drugs. But it didn't work since now. Thanks to all of you who reading this. Please forgive me for my bad english.