This is interesting because I share your same apathy for life. I feel like no matter how hard I try I'll still be living at the mercy of the James Taggarts of the world. I just want for a brief moment not to be the only voice of reason where I am. I work with people that just don't get reality (that in some cases openly say that it doesn't exist at all), its all so depressing like there are no good moral people. Where I work the best of us are punished for our achievements and beaten down with insane policies that make it appear that the morons in charge are the heroes. I guess thats what I should expect from a not-for-profit.
I guess I'm just sick of this world and the people in it.