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I hav a non objectivist bf, been together for almost 2 yrs now, i do love him. he is rational all rite, however, not sum1 that can be counted as obJvst by far. I can even move on, tho i know i love him, but if things not working out, its best to move on witout causing pain to each other. however, he doesnt want to let go. and its a little difficultt thing to do when jus one person sees things this way. I am constantly in a state of contemplation, and not expecting anything gud, so exhausting myself with work day and nite. I fail to understand why i should love him so,when his perceptions dont match wid mine, by whc i dont mean any personal thoughts, jus obctvst ideas. and yet i know i am wasting energy. also, i try to expect close to nothing from him, coz i dont want to base myhappiness on any oher person. but things get imbalanced coz d expectations from the other side are too much. i tend to feel, he is taking me for granted, would it be the same if i expected so much? Evrything seems like a mess, and if there is so much thoughts and efforts reqd, if things dont come naturally, den i dont c d point. i can have the strength to walk over, and still love him in my heart, but he doesnt see this. i am in pain and i feel disgusted at bieng vulnerable to anyone.

morality is not synonymous to hedonism. it is placing one's happiness as the ultimate aim of one's existance only if one knows he deserves and has acquired the right to happiness by his/ her individual pursuit. well then the question of masturbation being moral boils down to just this-if u think u deserve happiness only by masturabtion, its moral. if u think u derserve happiness from reality, its sex.