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I was a very spiritual and 'devout' christian from the time i was 9. Im now 19. After having many spiritual experiences of intense happiness and "closeness" with God, through his son Christ Jesus, I have started to realize that i was only using these experiences as a cover up for my hurts, pains and rejections in life. These "experiences" grew lesser and lesser in their intenseness and now im at the point where i, myself am going to have to deal with reality (in a real way). I have also started to notice that Christianity is motivated by fear. This fear is usually not easily detected because of it thick layer of guilt that they put you under. I still believe in god though. You might ask HOW? Well, let me explain. I believe in god, but i will not 'blindly' put my faith in these christian authorities who tell me what to believe. In other words, they could tell me anything, and as long as my 'blind' faith is still active then i will be gullible and believe, without even caring to see if it is actually true. In this case (which is the case with all christian followers), their faith is in the man, and the BELIEF is in god. My view of faith is different than belief in god (or about god). Belief in god (or about god) requires an emotional dynamic of guilt. There are three "types" of Faith: 1) Faith in another person 2) Faith in myself 3) Faith in god In order to have faith people need to have an image of what god is (and this needs to represent a 'personal' god. Christianity doesn't have a personal god. Prayer doesn't work (by own experience). For most people, they believe that their religious teacher is a form of god. For people who don't like to believe that god has a human form, the image of the sun (or, more accurately an image of a white shining light is used to represent the personal god). For me my goal in life (right now) is to find faith in myself, and faith faith in god later on in life. Then i can become happy within my place of the cosmos of creation, towards my spiritual evolution and journey towards NIRVANA! Ultimately it doesn't matter which image is used. All that matters is that the person is inspired to live a life of goodness as best he can.

Christianitys' belief in god (or about god) is centered around its fear. This fear is not usually recognized because of its thick layer of guilt. Belief in god (or about god) requires an emotional dynamic of guilt. My view of faith in god is different than that of belief in god (or about god). In other words when a "man" tells me what god is then my faith is in the man and my belief is about god. We blindly believe the "authorities" of christianity and so therefore our faith is in the man not in god. There are 3 types of faith: 1) Faith in another person 2) Faith in myself 3) Faith in god In order to have faith, people need to have an image of god or a substitute. For most people, this means believing that their religious teacher is a form of god. For some people that believe god does not have a human form, the image of the sun (or, more accurately, an image of a white shining light) is taken to represent a personal god. Ultimately, it does not matter which image is taken to represent god. All that matters is that a person is inspired to live a life of goodness as best he can. For me, my goal in life (right now) is to find faith in myself first. Then i can find a faith in god. Next i can be happy within my place in the cosmos of creation towards my spiritual evolutionary journey towards NIRVANA!

Re-Belief in god (or about god) Christianitys' belief in god is centered around its fear. This fear is not usually noticed by its followers because of the thick layer of guilt. Belief in god requires an emotional dynamic of guilt. My view of faith in god is different than a belief in god. True faith in god does not come from my "blind" faith in another man. In other words, if i believe that what a "man" (who doesn't claim to be a form of god) is telling me that god is (what he thinks god is), then my faith is in the man, and the belief about god is the belief not the faith. In other words, christianity believes (blindly) what man tells "us", so we have faith in the "authorities". In order to have faith, people need to have an image of a 'personal' god or a substitute. For most people, this means believing that their religious teacher is a form of god. For some people, that do not believe god has a human form, the image of the sun (or, more accurately, an image of shining white light) is taken to represent the personal god. Ultimately, it does not matter which image is taken to represent god. All that matters is the person is inspired to live a life of goodness as best he can. For me, my goal (right now in life) is to find a faith in myself (first) and then i can find faith in god (not corresponding to what man says i need to do or believe) , A TRUE FAITH IN GOD. Then i can be happy within my place of the cosmos of creation in my spiritual evolution and journey towards NIRVANA!